Ive Grown to Learn Acceptance.

It used to freak me out when you talked about us breaking up, thats why id always reply with thoughts of the future. it still does bug me, cause even if you dont think about it like that, like were going to break up, it still means your thinking about it...which just freaks me out, makes me think im not making you happy or something. Ive grown to realize that yea were not gunna spend eternity together ( no matter how much i think so now) But now ive accepted it, lets live in the present, not thinking of the past or future. Lets live each day happily without regret and restraint, lets just love each other because we do (honestly still don't know HOW you find me attractive :P) I know we can have bad communication, and its mostly me cause i never say whats wrong...unless where alone and in person :P but for me its hard to express that emotion infront of other people or over the phone or even on msn. i can only truely express how i feel when im alone with you, or writing it down(which ive recently learnt :P) so babe im sorry I dont say whats wrong that often but i just find it so hard...i grew up bottling all the wrong and pain inside, and then when i finally let it out it, it was to late, the moments that bugged me for so long had just passed long gone. I know i gotta stop doing it but its just what i know, and im sorry. BUT i thank you for taking the time to let me express myself when most would just lose interest...so thanks babe...i love you alot