Touch the rose unfearful, Is to feel the thorn

today (well technically yesterday but i had to go to bed at 10 45 so i couldnt finish this blog), well it was quiet a day. it was filled with Love, Loneliness(on 2 accounts) feeling at peace, acceptance, and fun. To make this easier ill write it out explaining how i felt said feelings. Well first off Love: Well this one has multiple accounts aswell, so ill start with Rachel. Babe i dont know if you fully know this but you do, ACTUALLY make my day, just hearing from you, hearing your precious voice...it just makes me feel amazingly good :) Second: Just being in a room filled with people that love you is sooo comforting(which ties into the feeling of acceptance). Loneliness: This account is more from missing you so much, i love you alot babe, and i CANT WAIT to see you tonight :) Second: When i first went to the place where everyone was, at first NOBODY KNEW WHO I WAS! even my grosma said OH Alyssa is this your boyfriend? THANK GOD SOME OF THEM STARTED TO RECOGNIZE ME. Peace: everybody seemed so chill with grospas death...like they knew it had to happen to cease the pain, so theyre just happy hes not hurting anymore. Fun: When we went for dinner I sat at the table with my guy cousins. It was actually pretty fun! my cousin joe was telling us stories from the cadets core....and most of them WERE SO MESSED! so me and my other cousin Josh just laughed! it was really nice to get to hangout with them for a night...seeing how i havent seen them since 2002. Well that basically wraps up my day...im excited for today then...getting to say goodbye...And say hello to you my love :)