Touch the rose unfearful, Is to feel the thorn

today (well technically yesterday but i had to go to bed at 10 45 so i couldnt finish this blog), well it was quiet a day. it was filled with Love, Loneliness(on 2 accounts) feeling at peace, acceptance, and fun. To make this easier ill write it out explaining how i felt said feelings. Well first off Love: Well this one has multiple accounts aswell, so ill start with Rachel. Babe i dont know if you fully know this but you do, ACTUALLY make my day, just hearing from you, hearing your precious voice...it just makes me feel amazingly good :) Second: Just being in a room filled with people that love you is sooo comforting(which ties into the feeling of acceptance). Loneliness: This account is more from missing you so much, i love you alot babe, and i CANT WAIT to see you tonight :) Second: When i first went to the place where everyone was, at first NOBODY KNEW WHO I WAS! even my grosma said OH Alyssa is this your boyfriend? THANK GOD SOME OF THEM STARTED TO RECOGNIZE ME. Peace: everybody seemed so chill with grospas death...like they knew it had to happen to cease the pain, so theyre just happy hes not hurting anymore. Fun: When we went for dinner I sat at the table with my guy cousins. It was actually pretty fun! my cousin joe was telling us stories from the cadets core....and most of them WERE SO MESSED! so me and my other cousin Josh just laughed! it was really nice to get to hangout with them for a night...seeing how i havent seen them since 2002. Well that basically wraps up my day...im excited for today then...getting to say goodbye...And say hello to you my love :)

In a Future Day There May Be Waves, But the Skys Have Never Looked So Clear.

All day Ive listened to Relient K's songs "at least we've made it this far" and "curl up & die" i dunno what it is about them but they calm me, and at a time like this....its pretty helpful. Even at work today i sang them to myself cause i no longer have headphones :( ANYWAYS, I learnt today that my grospa has already been cremated sooo i don't get to see him in person ever again...WHICH SUCKS but hey there's always pictures and memories. enough about that tho! today was a FANTASTIC day...got to hang out with my sexy lady ;) Its always nice to see her...even if it is only for acouple hours...or mins...or seconds (Seeing you makes me happy) but for today it was acouple hours. we had a fun time at my house, forced her to watch my favorite show A.K.A SCRUBS ( LOVE IT!!! its were i got my bro love thing from :P ) but the odd thing was, was when we said our goodbyes...i walked her down to the bus stop....and we couldn't walk away from each other. For the first 15 mins all i could do was kiss you...not turn around or look away, just stare into your gorgeous eyes and kiss you. then finnally when i tried to walk away...you just gave me a pouty look ( dont get me wrong im glad that you did do it!) and i just couldnt leave, i just kept leaning in for another kiss. Hell i even made you miss your bus :P we stood there for a good 40 mins kissing and hugging (infront of a police station may i add!) That was the longest its ever taken us to say goodbye...it was FANTASTIC! defiantly made my day :)
*X Z D GOUT* <---German for i love you